There are certain things and this that I'm not capable to share it to someone.

I use to think that everyone needs a space for her/his life, and I think that since I dont consider myself as a loveable one, and I never felt be loved a lot so far, so I think that not everyone in this world gives a shit about my existence in this world, and I think that noone really cares about me, soo I dont really rely everything on someone, so thats why I think that I dont have any interest with anything (I mean I do read some books, I watched some series, I do travelling, I hang out with friends but I thought It is not really an effective way for me to coping with my personal axienty).

And when it comes to that problem (anxiety and overthinking)?

Solat, and cry as much as i could, say everything like Allah hears every single word I say, swapped my self with tear, and rely on the thought that everything would be just fine after this. It may seem silly and does not make any sense to someone but I dont know.

Does it work on me? Of course, as I ever post previously i dont know why too, why everything seems just fine after I spoiled it all to Allah,

World then turns out to give me the ways to get out  from my anxiety and problem, so thats why i always believe on the power of dua, worship and so on.

Thats why too im still alive right now, still laugh even though i dont really laugh but it seems like I know how to handle things, at least for my own feeling towards this life.

But I know I need to train myself to be capable to say what I really want to say, I'll try as much as I could, that I have the right to say everything.

And now, I'm applying my right to say one of my thought that I want to share