What can I do then?

I was scrolling down my twitter feed, came across to Tempo's account to search a news about Fedelis, a men who was arrested by the police because he planted marijuana at his backyard for his wife's medication from cancer-suffering. I wanted to rt the tweet and say "What a blessed coincidence to have this thing happened, here, in Indonesia, to finally bring the conversation here. Sooner than I ever expected"

But before finding the news, I jumped into another article about a rape case, a very depressing rape case, a girl who had been raped by a security officer in Bandung committed suicide after she was forced to be in an interview by a reporter from a local newspaper asked her for detail regarding what happened to her. Her mom is sure that she committed suicide after she heard some inappropriate words from the reporters regarding her case.

I felt terrible by the article, it made me stuck with some fear inside my chest which I didnt where it was from. I felt depressed by the news, I felt like something heavy hit  my shoulder but I dont know how to remove them. I stayed up the night, wondering why this thing could happen to her, how she felt about her life, how can she survived the day she was raped, I felt so guilty, I dont know why, It's not fair she had to pass her life with that kind of way while I'm here, feel safe in my room, with a cozy bed with a full stomach.

What made me more depressed is the fact that she was not provided with any legal aid or any support from the professional (which is this thing already ruled by the law), how can she just went to the police, with no any intervention by the police, she just went to there, testify and go home, why?? why the police didn't send her to trauma center or any social service center for the victims, at least she could meet some professionals who can emotionally support her, save her from her neighborhood to prevent any further victimization, why??

I felt so awful about my self for being someone who always claims that what could be done to support victim is to push the government to rule the protection and remedy for the victims but at the same I'm here with no ability to guarantee the law is implemented.




then I imagine, sex assault is an extremely serious crime, it can be traumatic and longlasting, but most victims are reluctant to report it because of fear, embarrassment and trauma.

what can I do then?