Cause I never be

I have to admit that my blog would be just pile of things that I cant even describe what they really are. Sometimes I write on something that might be serious with data, analysis and argument regarding criminal law, but then I can write something that so chessy and ewuhh. I had a plan to separate my writings on things and things, but I think again, I am not kind of person, Yap it is also because if I am going to so serious what I write about I have a plenty of place out there. So, what is the point of having a blog if you can't just be free about what youre gonna write, rite??

I always believe that writing makes everything better, I always feel better after I write something. Sometimes I regret not to write something when I have to. So now, for the one who ever asked me, where is your writing about me, no, It is not the answer. I just spontaneously want to write, and unfortunately It's about you, and nothing more. The fact that you was mad at me cause you were upset I am prone to write about you while I am sad (in fact I dont really know) does not gonna change the fact that I write about you when I write about you. 

For the 2 recent days with our days off I have swamped myself with some movies about moving on. It was because there was a thread in twitter from a selebtwit and he explained about his recommendation on movies about broken heart, be okay and moving on. Suprisingly I have watched the first 5 movies he said on his thread. Voila, beacuse of it, hmmm I claim that "I am unconsciously love this kind of movies" So I watched the other movies he recommends on his thread. 

Hmmmm

Well, I have watched 2 movies so far.  It tickled me honestly since I just felt lost recently. Have you ever heard that I hate falling in love? Yap, I hate falling in love, sometimes, I believe that falling in love just makes you stupid, silly and forget what you're really going to do. Ups, you underestimate love, maidin, hahaha. No no no it is not that way. Ya, I sometime think so. But life so far with the "idup gini amat" moments and the movies I watched has taught me that nothing lasts forever.

With all the circumstance, you know, it's not because of our difference. I can get easily be mad at anything that I have no right to be mad at. My mind can be so unfair towards conduct of someone that have no right to be. Sometime, in the peak of my feeling I feel shame on my own self. Think again, that, I am going to write it is on me but It's not only on me. I mean, we've grown up, I am not going to play victim as I am the only one who started this and be miserable after that, no I am not. It is on us. Everything is going too far, but, so sad I am happy. Can I just say that you're happy too? But at least I have a refrence to claim it, yaaa sometime you say that you're happy, and hmhmhmhm you're happy I am with you. Kira-kita begitchuuuu. 

I used to think that, what the hell you're doing, maidin. You're gonna miserable and left behind after this, and all you are going to say is "hahahah told ya, you pay the price" well, nothing lasts forever by the way. Even if I know someday I'll be soooooo sad, be miserable and left behind, it would not be forever. At least I have proved that! my life has been so good, when I'm upset at things, Allah gives me something from the others.  

I'm just going to fair with everything, even if it's with my mind. Yaaa maybe I am going to be judged. But I am okay, nothing lasts forever, even if the others' judgment toward me. hmmmm no-one really cares about me anyways, lol.  Be worried about things is just a sign of a weak soul. I am not gonna be weak, cause I never be.